Day in, day out

I thought, over the past few days, why I never post much. I think I've discovered the real reason behind it. That reason is the fact that I always have _something_ going on in my head that I'd like to post/share/etc., but I don't want to make a new blog entry for every single one. So these thoughts fade away, and time goes by and none of these ever make it to my New Post window. I think the solution is to just wait a few days between postings, then post whatever is on my mind at the time. Anyway...

Grad school is looming over my head, and I'm still conflicted as to staying/leaving this company. i had planned on having a conversation with my boss today, but he's out so it'll be Wednesday at the earliest, probably Thursday before I sit and have a conversation with him. I'll e-mail him next time I'm in the office and he's not, either Wednesday or Thursday. Thing is, I love working here. But, I also can't pass this opportunity to go to school, essentially for _free_. How awesome is that? College isn't a scam if you're going for free. Other than the $90+k in lost wages, but it's my plan to create an online presence by graduation, hopefully knocking out all of my student debt and ending grad school in the black.

That being said, however, I'm finding it very difficult to get myself back into the coding mindset, at least for Zombies at War. Part of me wants to scrap the project, but I know that's just both me giving up and me being lazy. It's my fear that it's never going to make any money, and that my future ideals as a businessperson are totally flawed and impossible. Maybe it's not possible to live a comfortable lifestyle without really working. Perhaps it's only possible to remain alive, with no extravagances, without working for only a short time. So far, things have worked out for me. Maybe they will work in the future, maybe they won't. But all in all I realized a few days ago that if i'm procrastinating _now_ because I'll "work on it during grad school", what proof do I have that I will actually work on anything related in grad school? I have the same free time now, I won't be moving anywhere, so why do i insist on putting it off until later? I should just do it now. And that's what I'm going to do.